Best Song Ever

I love this song.

It's helped to remind me that I am a daughter of God with infinite and unchangeable worth in my Father's eyes.
(If you can't tell, this week that message has been hitting me again and again which has been wonderful for me)

There are a lot of things from Young Women that have stuck with me.

One thing is the Young Women theme. Sometimes I'll repeat it to myself when I need to be reminded that I am a Daughter of God and I have a mission, a purpose to fulfill while I'm here.

I hope you enjoy the song as much as I do:)

Institute

I have developed a love for institute. Today I am especially grateful for it. For the past I don't know how many weeks this semester, I've walked around with a depressed, semi upset look on my face and couldn't for the life of me figure out why people act happy to see me some days and other days steer clear. But today, I figured out why that was thanks to a fantastic lesson/beginning thought during institute.

The thought was this great quote that I can't for the life of me remember, anyways.... the gist of it was whatever you send out is exactly what you get back. It was an interesting thought, something we've all heard a million times from wise people who can't seem to get us to listen, but this time I was finally listening because the light bulb finally went off in my head and I realized that mean grumpy face I kept walking around with was just as good as a sign that says buzz off stamped on my forehead. Now for my next institute epiphany via the lesson which was about the Sermon on the Mount, specifically when the Savior talks about judging others.

Again, something we have heard a million times before, but this time I applied it in a slightly different way to myself than I had before.

Epiphany: I've been upset and grumpy the past couple of weeks because I keep comparing myself to everyone around me. Especially with the other girls in my Speech Pathology major. Every negative judgment I made about these girls usually had to do with the girl having something I admired and lacked. I'm so nervous about grad school and whether or not I should go for it or if I'm even qualified enough to have a fighting chance at getting in that I have hurt my own self esteem and my chances of having a lot of good friends in my program by being so upset that 'I'm not good enough' compared to these girls (pathetic, I know). I guess I still have time to fix/start good relationships with these girls, but I've already given a lot of people a bad impression of me that probably won't be easy to fix.

I feel like I used to have all the confidence in the world, but I have become so worried about what other people (especially professors) are thinking of me that I have become a socially awkward wreck!!!

Well, NOT ANY MORE!!!
(beating myself up every day is no bueno)

Institute today basically was a slap back into reality.

I should be the person I want to be.

Thank you agency for giving me the ability to think and act for myself.

Sorry for this probably boring rebuking of myself, but I feel like I have more drive to do something if I write it down.

New Goal: Be the person I want to be, develop skills and attributes I want to develop, and smile because life is pretty good.

I hope all of you are enjoying being the fantastically beautiful people you are.



(This picture really has no point, I just found it slightly comical)

Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day was very fun for Karl and I!

We both joke that this is the first year we wouldn't have a traumatic or awkward Valentine's experience. Karl has a very entertaining story about last Valentine's day involving cheez-its and a 6 hour car ride:) I'll spare him and not tell the details, but both of us were very glad to get to spend the day with our eternal Valentine.

Karl picked me up after I got off work and then we headed to the Blue Bird for dinner, which just happened to be where we went to dinner on our first official date. The Bluebird was hopping with a slightly more 'mature' crowd. I saw that the Blue Bird was having a Valentine's Buffet in place of taking orders. Well, my husband wasn't to thrilled with that idea so after we were seated we decided to call over to Chili's and eat there instead. We were in a lazy mood and wanted to be served instead of serve ourselves. Plus, that Chili's chips and salsa is super super super delicious and I started craving those chips as soon as we thought of Chili's as plan B.

So we sneakily left the Blue Bird, which still served the purpose of fulfilling our sentimental mood, and headed to Chili's where we had a delicious dinner. Then, we were going to go to the store and buy apples for our treat because I am addicted to fruit and on the date that I broke up with Karl on (longish story, but it was actually one of the most fun dates we have been on. I had some issues.) I asked him if we could have fruit for the treat, but since being married I have grown a gynormous sweet tooth so we went to Lee's and got a big tub of vanilla ice cream, hard shell chocolate sauce, frozen strawberries, and ice cream cones instead. Eating that ice cream while watching episodes of The West Wing at home was so delicious and relaxing.

All in all, it was a funny, relaxing, great day with the man I love. He helps me laugh at life and at myself. He has taught me so much about working hard for the things that matter most. And I can't get over that light in his eyes when he smiles or talks about the things he believes and wants to accomplish with me. I am crazy about the guy so sorry about my mushiness, or not so sorry. It's mushy, sentimental, and most importantly the way I feel so there ya have it.

I hope you guys enjoyed a day of love and laughter with the people you care about! Here is an awesome talk by Elder Holland that made me have a better understanding of Christ Like love called How Do I Love Thee? I'm posting the video so you can all watch. It is a wonderful talk all about the love of our Savior. I hope you all enjoy and happy Valentine's week!

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I don't really know what to post today, but I'm sitting at a computer at work with very few people in the lab and I'm avoiding studying for my Anatomy of the Ear class because I don't even know how to begin studying for that class so I've been blog stalking people for the past hour( don't judge me, I know you all do it to). Maybe I'll just give a few updates...

I dropped my ASL 2 class. I kind of feel like I wimped out on the class, but it's not a class I'm required to take and I didn't like the incredibly frustrated feeling I got every time I was in the class or thinking about the class. Now was just not my time to attempt to master sign language. Instead, I'm taking this awesome assistive technology class where I have already gotten to build a modified book stand for an individual with a disability and I get to help fit an awesome little boy who has a recent TBI with some assistive technology that will help him out a ton. It's a great class, and I am so glad I made the switch.

I got sick again yesterday. So fun! But my awesome husband held me and made me feel better while we studied for his psychology test on Friday (I am his official quizer:) and watched episodes of the Dick Van Dyke Show.
P.S. If you have never seen the Dick Van Dyke Show, I highly recommend looking it up. It's fantastic!
I'm feeling much better after my third trip to the insta care in the past two months. My body has got stop being angry with me! Or I just have to double my efforts of keeping myself healthy.

I am super excited to decorate my apartment with Valentines Day decorations thanks to my lovely most wonderful mom who came up to Logan on Sunday with my super awesome dad and Dash (my most favorite dog in the world). She brought decorations to help me out with the beautification of the apartment for the next few holidays. AND...she bought me a glue gun so I can do the button earring project! My family is so wonderful:)

I'm excited for this weekend because me, Karl, and the G-man will be heading down to Bountiful to hang out with my parents and Shae-Shae and so Karl and I can get together with one of the awesome members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints from Sydney, Australia that Karl met on his mission. He is in Salt Lake for awhile and wanted to have dinner. So I can't wait for it to be approximately 3 in the afternoon tomorrow so we can begin our mini trip.

Anyways, I should start studying now that I have wasted the past two hours of work. Have a lovely day and a fantastic weekend!